Techniques of Propaganda, God, and Tupac

Friday, June 16, 2017.
One day (much later than one would expect to realize such things), it dawned on me that Tupac was Black, and that I wasn’t. I realized that his love and his words weren’t intended for me. I felt like an outsider — like someone who woke up and realized that world that they had been living in all this time wasn’t intended for them, but that they were only getting a tour of what was originally created for the sake of rich, educated, White men. I remember that it made me feel a little bit sad, disappointed, hurt, and also embarrassed. I had always thought that Tupac was somehow beyond all that, but it turned out that he wasn’t. I realized that Black people were racist, and hateful, and ignorant — and that he was singing his songs for them, to help them heal. I realized that Black people had suffered a lot, and that they were still suffering. And I realized that Black people needed Tupac’s love for them, in a way that perhaps I didn’t.